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Broken Dreams

Thief








Since: 05-29-05
From: California

Since last post: 6388 days
Last activity: 6388 days
Posted on 06-14-05 09:56 PM Link
(all in one month...)

I been trying to be so positive about everything that's going on right now U_U
First off I didn't like saying anything about my education I been lying to all my friends (that are in real life) pretty much most of my friends have lied to me and treated me like crap. I haven't had any education for a couple months now because I got kicked out...missed a lot of days and didn't do as much catch up work as I should have take full responsibility for that and I just got far behind. Then my aunt in law was murdered by her mom and her mom shot herself and then I am sure everyone knows about the uzu thing and if you don't I don't want to get into that!
and now I got kicked out of my house I only got to save like 6 pare of clothes and my gold fish =o the lady that kicked me out was like a mother to me....I knew her sense I was 2 years old and she cussed me out on the phone like I was a stranger that screwed her over but I didn't do anything wrong!!! just because she had a problem with my other family members she treated me badly and right now I think what made me crack is about an hour ago my best friend the only person who makes me feel better about myself just completely made me feel like crap and everyone I ever trusted just like totally stepped on my heart like it was nothing and I can't take it anymore I'm so desperate of just letting all this out I am posting on a forum with people who are most likely going to tell me to " shut the fuck up" and get over it because everyone goes through it and that I'm being just a cry baby u_u well I know a lot of people go through more then i ever will right now I just need some type of comfort some one who is going to listen and not judge me or tell me what to do or that there going through more and that this is just life....I'm feeling lost and confused and I understand that this is life and that we can't do much and that we can only feel better by making ourselves feel better and right now....it's hard for me....it's hard to make myself feel better....it's hard to trust anyone...


(Last edited by Broken Dreams on 06-15-05 01:04 AM)
Spartan

Metal battleaxe
Is back. Kind of.








Since: 11-15-04

Since last post: 2091 days
Last activity: 1332 days
Posted on 06-14-05 10:06 PM Link
Originally posted by Broken Dreams
(all in one month...)

I can't take it anymore I'm so desperate of just letting all this out I am posting on a forum with people who are most likely going to tell me to " shut the fuck up" and get over it because everyone goes through it and that I'm being just a cry baby u_u well I know a lot of people go through more then i ever will right now I just need some type of comfort some one who is going to listen and not judge me or tell me what to do or that there going through more and that this is just life....I'm feeling lost and confused and I understand that this is life and that we can't do much and that we can only feel better by making ourselves feel better and right now....it's hard for me....it's hard to make myself feel better....it's hard to trust anyone...


I am not going to tell you to STFU...that is not the way anyone on Xeo is like...Most of us have problems and we try to comfort and help you get back on your feet.

I am sorry that a person who ment alot to you has kicked you out of you home and i hope that you can work things out with your friends and the people you care about...


(Last edited by Spartan on 06-15-05 03:11 AM)
Bloody Tears









Since: 05-15-05
From: Hmm... I dont know... OMFG Where do i live?

Since last post: 6482 days
Last activity: 6482 days
Posted on 06-14-05 10:12 PM Link
Hmm... I know that you probably dont like me but oh well i'm gonna reply to this. I'm gonna go ahead and say that everyone does go through this probably not as bad as this. But if you think it is so bad then it cant get worse right? If there is anything good going on right now then try to focuse on that. You can talk to me and I will not judge you. Even though you might not want to but you just have to forget about the whole Uzu thing and realize there are gonna be people like that. Maybe you should come down here to let all of your frustation out on him. He he that would be fun... I might even help you. I'm sure alot of people will help you out with this one so i'll shut up now.


Note: Dont listen to everything Dale say im not really a bad person he just didnt get to know me.
Broken Dreams

Thief








Since: 05-29-05
From: California

Since last post: 6388 days
Last activity: 6388 days
Posted on 06-14-05 10:16 PM Link
bloody tears I don' hate you at all I have nothing agianst you please don't think I do I just feel bad for you sense this is all going on and Im sorry....

Edit: thank you Spartan....


(Last edited by Broken Dreams on 06-15-05 01:19 AM)
Elara

Divine Mamkute
Dark Elf Goddess
Chaos Imp
Penguins Fan

Ms. Invisable








Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

Since last post: 74 days
Last activity: 74 days
Posted on 06-15-05 12:46 AM Link
*enter the board psychiatrist*

*huggles*

Sweetie, I'm going to be frank here: all of this is indeed very overwhelming and it sucks that you have to go through it all when you really shouldn't have to.

Education: There is always summer classes at a community college or something to make it up, or even your school. Talk to a councelor or something and I know they can help you.

Murder: Like I said in your thread about this, I am horribly sorry for you loss. It is a tragic thing that this happened, and all I can really say is that I am sure that she would rather you celebrate her life than mourn her death. Keep her alive in your memories. It's all I can say really.

Uzu: I vaguely know what happened, and I am not going to pry. Trust me when I say that it is a fleeting thing, that you are young, and as much as it hurts now you will move on and find someone that is better for you. After all, it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.

Home: I really don't know what to say... I mean, this is just horrible. I don't know why you were kicked out, but I am sure there is some way to resolve it. I mean, for now at least you have someone to stay with and that is the most important thing, and I am sure that they can help in perhaps talking with your family into letting you go back home.

No one here would ever tell you to "shut the fuck up" lest they face my wrath. I do hope that things work out for the best with you in all this, but just keep in mind that you are more than welcome to seek solace here, we will always do our best to help.
Black Lord

Koopa








Since: 12-12-04

Since last post: 5385 days
Last activity: 5385 days
Posted on 06-15-05 06:26 AM Link
I'm sure things will work their way out, Broken Dreams. Just keep on keepin on and you'll do fine. You're a talented and beautiful young lady and I'm sure you'll make it where you want to.
Azen Dalin

Thief








Since: 08-30-04

Since last post: 6386 days
Last activity: 6385 days
Posted on 06-15-05 07:07 AM Link
*hugs BD* Things are bad, and I know it seems like nothing is ever going to get better...but it will. You have to have faith in yourself and the people around you. Maybe your friend felt it was time to give you a reality check. I went through a hell of a lot when I was younger and its only made me stronger, and this should make you stronger as well.

If anything, when you look back on this remember, "I went through hell...and got through it." That's what I think when I look back on some of my childhood. Even though things may be bad, you also have to remember the good. If there's some form of good, even if its a memory, things won't be quite as bad. Trust me.

You can PM me if you need too. Trust me, I'll lend you whatever ear I can.
Broken Dreams

Thief








Since: 05-29-05
From: California

Since last post: 6388 days
Last activity: 6388 days
Posted on 06-15-05 11:48 AM Link
Thank you everyone I feel much better today I don't know what came over me last night, I cracked and I felt like everyone around me was drowning me in a pool of lies. Well I do always look on the bright side I'm not really the kind to give in so easily, I also have had a hard child hood.

Love will come and go so I understand I am young.

well I won't be going back home but atleast I will get my things ^-^

I haven't spoken to my best friend, she wasn't giving me a reality check I did nothing to her but was honest and she went off on me and you can't just go and do that to your friends. Today I'm going to get out and go to the movies with my friend josh, maybe see Mr. and Mrs. Smith, my friend josh has been a real friend lately so I am pretty chipper I'm glad I met him.
Elara

Divine Mamkute
Dark Elf Goddess
Chaos Imp
Penguins Fan

Ms. Invisable








Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

Since last post: 74 days
Last activity: 74 days
Posted on 06-15-05 11:34 PM Link
Sounds an aweful lot like me in the past week to be honest, heh heh.

I'm glad to hear that you are feeling better today. I know that there are times when you just snap and feel like there is no one there that understands you... scary thoughts always hit during those times, I should know. I don't know what is up with your friend, but hopefully with time you and her can talk and figure out just what caused that. As for this Josh person, you tell him from me that we are all very thankful that he is being such a good friend to you.

Mr. & Mrs. Smith is an excellent movie, I saw it with my boyfriend last Friday and it was just what I needed to cheer me up from the funk I've been in, hopefully it does the same for you.
Broken Dreams

Thief








Since: 05-29-05
From: California

Since last post: 6388 days
Last activity: 6388 days
Posted on 06-16-05 12:13 AM Link
yeah things are going real well me and my best friend started talking and were cool agian.

O.O josh paid for my ticket were just friends but I'm starting to feel like he likes me o.O while I was watching the movie and a corny part came on when the two couples were kissing he looked at me and gently touched my cheek I was like " whoa....." but I was flattered. It felt nice that sone one likes me.
^-^ THE MOVIE WAS AWESOME omg it was so cool ^-^ *giggles* EVERYONE GO WATCH IT!

yeah I cracked pertty har dthat night I wanted to go jump infront of a car but yet not start any drama so I decided to stay quite and just complain on this forum >.> sense I have no diary <.< and I have no paper or a pencil...
Elara

Divine Mamkute
Dark Elf Goddess
Chaos Imp
Penguins Fan

Ms. Invisable








Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

Since last post: 74 days
Last activity: 74 days
Posted on 06-17-05 02:37 PM Link
Well, if ranting makes you feel better, you could always start a live journal like I did... although you will get more feedback if you rant here... but for those things that you don't feel like sharing with people there is always the private entries on your LJ. Gods I love that function!

I am glad to hear that you and your friend are talking again.

As for Josh, that is sweet. In many ways, it reminds me of something I just went through myself *looks at venomouslobster and smiles*. It is very flattering to discover that someone else does care about you after you've been through something like this, and it helps you heal much faster because it kicks you out of the "no one likes me, I'm so unloved" phase automatically.
caxama

Archer








Since: 06-22-05
From: Petaluma, CA, you just gotta love that sunshine

Since last post: 6422 days
Last activity: 6035 days
Posted on 07-27-05 03:40 PM Link
I'm sorry that things got so overwellming ( I can't spell)

*HUGS, KISSES, and ESKIMO KISSES*

You should know by now that you are much loved here. Personally, though I cannot see your face, or know you in person, I feel that you are special and good. You should also know that all of us are here for you.

F.Y.I I;m with Elara, anyone telling you to STFU can deal with the rest of us. *Looks at Elara* and I brought the shiny cattle prod. Just let me know when or if you want to use it on someone.You know what they say, what's mine is yours....
Darkness

Hoarder
Ready to be challenged in sim battles








Since: 10-07-04
From: Petaluma,CA

Since last post: 6393 days
Last activity: 5870 days
Posted on 07-27-05 10:21 PM Link
(Huge bump by Caxama...)



Anyway...I want you to know that I feel for you and if you need to talk to someone you can pm or Email me...(E-mail address in bio)...I hope you get through this ok...


(Last edited by Darkness on 07-28-05 01:22 AM)
Elara

Divine Mamkute
Dark Elf Goddess
Chaos Imp
Penguins Fan

Ms. Invisable








Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

Since last post: 74 days
Last activity: 74 days
Posted on 07-27-05 11:12 PM Link
While your words are very sweet caxama, you really need to learn to stop bumping threads.

Good to see that you are making use of the cattle prod, it's nice to know that my gift is appreciated.

*closes due to the bumping*
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