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True Flight The One         Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| CUZ I FREAKIN CALLED IT! Yeah I kept telling Eric. That they are going to make a Civil War Movie. He was like "No it would be too much." Are you freakin kidding me?! I called that like right after the first Avengers movie came out. |
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| Usually that's the issue. I would like to be listed as anonymous, but the local cops here are like so... "Homey" it's not funny. So the update is that we were making up with our relationship. However, she said a few things to me that she should have told Eric. Instead of me. She called me out on being a weak woman again and I just walked away. i couldn't take anymore of it. I haven't talked to them since. | |||
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| Hey guys. After a long pause in life, Spartan brought me back. Hullo | |||
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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Originally posted by Cammygirl192 testing out my post layout. Kinda going a Sailor Moon Crystal route. test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test test Alright let's see the results. |
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| >.> Survivor Generation X vs Millenials. Yeah... Been watching that for a bit.
Hairspray... Just can't get over John Travolta. |
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| Hey all, I've been told by Spartan to come back and well... I thought about it for a long time about coming back. My social anxiety was the main cause as to why it made me so hesitant, but honestly... I have some good friends here. I'm want to be honest. I'm not the same person I was back before I deployed, but I want everyone to know I'm alive... and well... for the most part. Before we get into some of the major and minor issues I want to make a couple of disclaimers. 1. This is to vent, if I offend you, I do apologize. I have had several cases of foot in mouth for a while. I have been snippy and snappy at a lot of people because of my issues, but in the long run I will know when I'm wrong and admit it. 2. If you don't want to get deep into this post, don't. Just don't even bother. The main reason I want to let everyone here know how I'm doing because they probably know where I'm coming from and let's face it, even though we haven't talked in years, I'm certain you all will be happy to hear that I have small victories every now and then. 3. Since my husband is sick of hearing about it, I think right here would be a good place to put out my thoughts. Saying things like "Get over it, and you'll feel better in the long run" is not what I want to hear or read. "It gets better" is my mantra, but I'm going to be frank, it has gotten worse and worse. So here's what has been going on with the Sorch. As everyone knows, I deployed back in '09. It was a pretty easy deployment, but I dealt with things that no person should have dealt with. I heard the goriness of those that were shot when "the enemy" invaded our FOB. I helped give medical aid when we ran out of medics because I was combat medic qualified. However, I did not participate in any firefights because our contractors were in control of that area. Coming home was hard. It was exhausting for one because of all the stuff I had to do paperwork wise, but other than that settling in has been a huge chore. The immense amount of paranoia hit and it hit hard. I acquired a hypervigilant way of looking around. There was a threat at every Walmart and I still to this day cannot stand rooms without windows. It aggravates Eric because I cannot remember anything for the life of me. He has to remind me about what I'm doing and where I'm going every day. I have psychotic breakdowns every time my daughter has her two toddler best friends come over to my home. The whole room feels like it closes in on me and when I get to the point of no return I snap at everyone because I cannot say "I need help." When I am working with people at work I constantly have panic attacks and I can't seem to function. It just feels like there is something about to happen. Loud noises set me off, I can't take fireworks anymore. If I can't see them, I will be set off. When things zip by me, like if someone were to throw something behind me and then it hits the wall, I have to go back to my room and hide under my sheets until someone tells me that it's going to be alright. I hear voices, those that have not made it back, I hear them. Constantly. They are in my dreams and they follow me around places like Walmart and Kroger making me go insane. I will see their faces where ever I go. When I am in one of my moods, my husband will blame me for ignoring me when I am trying to organize my thoughts. Which will then set me off to screaming at him and walking away. All in all, psychologically speaking. I feel like crap and I feel like I'm going to die everyday. I don't want to get up and I don't want to socialize. Getting out of the house just to go to work in the morning is a chore. Everyone doesn't want me around mainly because I'm a Debbie Downer. After opening up completely to a friend, he turned me away blaming his ignoring of me on his "busy schedule" when one of my closest military buds called bullshit on this. His thoughts of friendship is that he would drop anything just to talk to me. Even though he has a dark philosophy on life, he turns around and talks to me. No matter what the hour. Physically speaking... I'm not doing so hot as well. I have a bone spur in my ankle that I feel digging into my tendons everyday. My knees have cracks in the joints from osteoarthritis and my back is looking pretty bad now. I'm in a lot of pain everyday, but every time I walk up to my pain killers and attempt to take one, I suddenly don't need it anymore. I have tinitus, meaning I only hear ringing in my ears whenever it is completely quiet. It comes from being next to a generator. So yeah... After being rejected by one of my friends I posted this here to see what would happen. Yes I've gone to the VA for assistance and put in a claim. I'm working on my benefits, but I need a good counselor. The last counselor I had when I was doing intake at the facility, I told him about an incident that happened in AIT back in 2007, but he in turn compared my situation to Bill Cosby. Mental help is not the greatest here in Rome, GA. It drives anyone insane to the point where they don't want to go to there sessions. |
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| As far as counselors go, I have to get a new one, but without the benefits from the VA, I wind up having a 600.00 bill fronted to my face each time I visit. When it comes to meditation and yoga, I have attempted a regiment, but when I do have time, I need to be around my child. However, this does give me an idea. Probably going to have to introduce it to D'arcy. | |||
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| Yeah I decided I would just wander back in. Boy has it helped out a bit. This Thanksgiving was a huge chore, but all in all, a really good one. | |||
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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Originally posted by Elara Thank you, I have gotten into touch with the VA about my situation. The American Legion and VFW here in Rome is CONSTANTLY closed until Bingo nights and karaoke nights which I do not have time to go to. Originally posted by Lord Vulkas Mormonus That's fine and all, but I'm sure it's going to be the same things I do every day, i.e. countings random items in my area that are blue, counting back wards from 2009 in twos, working on a drawing or anything.. My mother recommended I get an animal who can tell when I'm about to go off. Enter my rescue cat Puck who has shown me what he is all about. (Last edited by True Flight on 11-29-16 04:47 PM) |
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| I haven't had time to do crap this past week about my issues. Let alone this month. It seems like the end of the year is the worst time ever. I got my benefits in, but I still have to go to my Intake at another facility with in the next three weeks. So I'm not going to be doing so well in my mind.
Puck has been doing wonderful with sensing my panic attacks. He tends to wake up from a deep sleep and then rushes to my chest. I have to deal with the fact that every now and then I have an episode. Eric figured out the hard way that he can't touch me when I have a flashback. I turned him into a pretzel by accident a couple nights ago.  ; |
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| So, no one really has seen any pictures unless they know me on facebook.
This is my mini me:  |
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| I hate Christmas Carols. | |||
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| Well it looks like we made it. I tried to slowly make my way in figuring out my password again, but Elara got me. lol.
It's been 20 years all. What makes this even more insane is the fact that I literally am in school right now. I have been working ahead on classwork waiting to get this post up. It's great to see you all and I hope you all have been doing well. We all have been through our worst moments in life and it seems like we all have been doing it together this entire time. I will be honest. I'm not at the happiest I want to be right now, but I am working towards it every day. I may have gotten lost along the way, but going to school to get the paper work to back my career has really helped. It's really opened my eyes to the time capsule this BBS is really to me. I look back on some of the silliness, drama, trauma, and everything and look at you guys warmly every time. Thanks. Thanks for keeping this up here and letting me a part of all of your lives. I hope we can continue on together on our different lanes for another 20 years. It is great to see you all. Regardless of the rifts that we hold in our relationships now. Some of them are irreparable and that's fine. I found my spot and I'm glad you found yours. Anyway I hope you all are doing well. It's great to see you once again. Here's to 20 more! True Flight |
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True Flight The One Since: 08-21-04 Since last post: 99 days Last activity: 99 days |
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| that gif is still there lol. |
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