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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\"          Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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Originally posted by Rogue Damn straight. Go Highlander rule on this cold's ass. Absorb its powers and come back even stronger! |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| Welp. Welcome. And thanks for finally posting.
Christ. :p |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| After much deliberation/healing on my part, I've decided to be a little more open about the subject. Hasn't even been a week, but I started a pretty dark path this morning and can't "see" someone until next week about it. Possibly some TMI so yeah. 6:06pm Sunday, my son was born at 20 weeks, 5 days. He was born alive and lived for a little over five hours but there really wasn't anything they could do. Everything happened SUPER fast too, so I guess that part is good. Even the physical recovery is happening at a decent speed, given how bad it all got I suppose. 12:30-ish I noticed some bleeding. I was cramping, but had been told since Friday that it was normal (which I truly believe they were right. Doctors I mean. What ultimately happened to me truly is something that happens in an instant. Unless my follow-up says something else was the cause, of course) So, anyway, I went to the hospital and was being examined by 1:30(The hospital itself wasn't too close, but its the best in the area for high risk, which was me anyway.) they were telling me that I was in labor and they were going to put me on IV to try and stop it while they figure out the cause. Incompetent cervix or uterine issues are a "typical" cause. The worst part was, I was feeling him kicking around the night before, and they did an ultrasound before examining me, and he was moving around a shit ton like usual. Perfectly fine. Just hanging out in there and shit. Then they examined me and I was dilated a bit and was dilating fast. By 2pm, the pain was bad enough for me to bend one of the metal tube things next to the bed with my bare hand and everyone was rushing around. My temperature was skyrocketing at that point and I was losing A LOT of blood. No one had time to tell me what was going on and I was fading a little. Finally, one nurse said she'd give me something for pain, and went near my IV. I managed to ask her what she was giving me and she said morphine. At that point I grabbed a hold of my IV and threatened to rip it right out if they didn't calm the hell down and tell me what was going on (this I only remember vaguely.) and the nurse told me that the medicine to stop labor wasn't working and that the baby was coming and that if they didn't break my water that I was going to get an infection and could possibly die. My fever was REAL high at that point too, which I did not realize. But, I wasn't completely out of it, so legally, they had to slow down at my wish and explain things in detail. They told me that in this case, they typically try to stop labor, sew me up a bit if need be, and keep me until 23-24 weeks and deliver then. I told them to do that. They ended up transferring me to labor and delivery anyway because labor wasn't stopping per se, my cervix said "fuck you" and there was nothing anyone could do. By 5pm, most of my vitals dropped so much that an executive decision was made by my boyfriend to break my water and get the baby out and get me on track for taking care of the infection. Mind you, most of this story is from finally putting things together from my boyfriend, the doctors/nurses/staff, and my sister (this happened to her. Twice. Only the first time the baby survived and we brought him home and he died two weeks later. I was in the house with her. I was 12. Needless to say, she wasn't staying home when she found out where I was). My memory blanks from about 1pm-5-something. I remember having to push once, nothing happened, and then a few minutes later, I felt the baby coming and here he was. They put him in my arms after immediately taking him to see if they could do anything, and we just laid there until after 11, while they pumped a shit ton of stuff through my IV. This is exactly why I didn't tell most people right away, but I honestly thought I was in the clear. As much as can be at least. The cause isn't known just yet. They know that my cervix was the cause, but there's multiple issues there. Basically they determined that at 13 ounces, that was actually too heavy for me. I'm not built for having babies, regardless of having PCOS or not (which is also another cause they're looking into, my polycystic ovarian syndrome.), and they think I can't ever carry full-term anyway, but at least 33-34 weeks with special care until then seems doable, with the limited info they have now. Also, I keep testing positive for ANA disorders. Which is common, especially in pregnancy, but after three positives they took a more serious test and that came up positive as well. I was supposed to get more tests this past Monday, but yeah. I did name the baby though and we get to have a little service thing for him, which makes the rest of my family feel better. The hard part will probably be come July, his due date. Lots of family are having kids. Two of my boyfriend's cousins. One was due the day after, the other two weeks after mine, and my niece's date is still June 23rd. (Mine was July 1st). My niece is pretty messed up over this too and I've spent more time feeling terrible about that. I raised my nieces and nephews. They'll always be my babies too, so its felt more instinctual to fuss over her feelings than my own. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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Originally posted by Elara Why I don't pay attention to my newsfeed in the winter. :p I think vaccinations are important, but that doesn't mean there aren't legitimate reasons not to get them, and you're right because at least from what I've seen, its always followed by "You're a bad person and going to hell if you don't." I also got sick of my best friend ranting like a teenage girl on facebook all the time. So, I blocked his ass. We're still best friends and not arguing or anything. He's just banned from my sight online is all. :p (Last edited by Katana on 03-04-14 04:43 PM) |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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Originally posted by Rogue I need that. Right now, rice crispy treat and a pack of gushers. Fuck yeah. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| ooooo. Was that the Who con thing you were talking about? Or is that normal you? :p | |||
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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Originally posted by Elara Never. Always hated snow. I might even hate it less now than when I was a kid, now that I think about what a hateful little bastard I was. XD Originally posted by Elara  But....but...I'm finally a grown-up and can't be told "No, you can't eat all of that candy." anymore...
**sigh** Remember when remembering things wasn't so damn hard? I feel old now that I can't have my candy anymore. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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Thanks you two. 
They figured out a little more, and to be honest, while they're still testing, it sounds like an episode of "House". Its only been a little over two weeks, but feels like forever. Things were going pretty well, but apparently I relapsed in the infection, couldn't go back to work and have been in and out of that place more often than I can count. I gave them a real hard time though because there were just a few things my gut was telling me. I'm NOT looking to blame anyone. That doesn't help, but there are certain things that I felt that were actually confirmed. For one, they didn't take the necessary precaution during the entire pregnancy that they should have, for my PCOS. They apparently never took me seriously about it because I'm not overweight and that's one of the PCOS symptoms. However, there IS a link between women having issues with low sugar levels and PCOS that causes weight LOSS. Which is my issue. I can't gain a pound for the life of me, I lose 3 to every one I try to get, and I get very sick very often. It is NOT something I'm doing on purpose and it is something that thanks to the way thinness is portrayed, it was difficult to take myself seriously and get taken seriously until I started getting really sick from it, which is only within the last two-three years or so. But anywho. I went off on them when I found that out. Incredibly ballistic. Its hard treating PCOS sometimes anyway, so legally there's nothing I can do and I don't want it to come to that anyway. They didn't neglect. They just didn't look for things deemed unworthy of looking for (which turned out to be there. If I'm making any sense here at all. I babble.) Another, I told them to explain to me what was going on with the ANA crap. I still have to wait until my six week follow-up for better answers, but they basically said this. Its standard to test for STDs and shit. I tested positive for Syphilis (This is where the House episode comes in.), they said that a false positive is common in pregnant woman, but when they did the same test again, it came up positive again. Mind you, I look at this shit from a health/scientific perspective. Its easy to fix and there's nothing to be embarrassed about. I knew I couldn't have had it before dating Matt. I was cheated on twice and specifically got myself tested after both times. But since Matt was my first after the last test, I asked him to get tested. He was negative, so that led them to ordering a special test. Syphilis came up negative but antinuclear antibodies/ana/autoimmune disorders came up. They did the fourth test which is the one I'm waiting on to help us figure it out more. They're leaning toward Lupus or Type 1 Diabetes. (Type 1 is considered an autoimmune disorder.) which would make sense at least. I've been tested for diabetes my whole life, had issues with sugar and while a clear positive never showed up, I was off and on insulin my whole life. Also, PCOS can cause type 2, BUT, type 1 can cause PCOS, and PCOS often shows up first in this case. But then right around 19-20, I stopped having as many problems with that stuff. Several other issues point to diabetes. Macular degeneration in my right eye is so bad that its unheard of for someone my age who ISN'T a diabetic to have it. Also, my kidneys don't function too well. They're looking into that as a precaution, but that's also a diabetic thing for someone my age. **sigh** Its just all really really complicated and the basic turn of events is loss of the baby was most likely not very spontaneous and between unchecked diabetes/other ana disorder it was bound to happen. But as far as blame is concerned, my sister is frustrated with me for not blaming them, everything about the "cause" points toward something that's difficult to diagnose to begin with. Diabetes alone can mask itself as many different issues, hence why its known as a "hidden disease", and what can you do? They also enjoy impressing upon me that my "clock" is ticking, due to my reproductive issues, so I'm not gonna lie, I'd probably actually try this time as soon as I'm medically cleared to have children. IF at all. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| Ahahaha. No baseball bat needed. I have bony knuckles.
But no, my family didn't say that about the clock, the doctors did. But they didn't do it with total insensitivity. They really did mean well and meant it in terms of my telling them "yes" when they asked if I would try again if I could. But yes, they had my records. I waited until after my first prenatal appointment to get the records to them though so that I knew exactly what they needed. But they had everything within the week after the appointment. Which is why turned into a real asshole toward them when I found out they didn't really take me seriously. PCOS can affect women in sooooo many different ways, and mine is fairly mild actually. They think my other problems are stemming from diabetes. However, women with known cases with PCOS need to be monitored during pregnancy because you don't know how it could affect it. In my case, for example, part of the reason why I didn't tell anybody I was pregnant (my family didn't even find out until before Christmas) was I went through two "scares". One, they thought the baby could have been tubal but I had to wait until 10 weeks to know for sure. Then at 11 weeks, they didn't get anything. No heartbeat or anything. That was because I had a fairly large cyst and they told me I might have to abort because babies can't thrive in that sort of environment. So, Rogue, what your friend went through is absolutely terrible. I can't believe she had to go through that. Knowing the kid is fine at the moment, whether you're looking at the screen and the baby is moving still, or you're being told that the baby, while moving and having a heartbeat NOW, will be born stillborn...shit...I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. Its all so freaking complicated. I seriously at this point wish it WAS syphilis somehow.  Penicillin will clear that right up. But no...its hard to find shit that gives false results for everything else under the sun. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| I too miss Beo! He was my buddy.
Hell, I feel like I graduated high school yesterday and when I see what sort of computer work my nephew is expected to handle, I want to die. Some little asshole was bullying him through snapchat. I wanted to fight that kid. Remember when you could get into fistfights without fear of going to jail? I'm so old. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| Ugh...those publicity fights are something born of social media too, I swear. we never fought like that. The second anyone picked up a weapon, an entire group came out of nowhere and like jumped on the kid, and even the kid themselves "woke up" and was like "I was THAT angry?!"
And to be honest, I don't think I'm allergic to gluten (I have to escape one ailment, right? :p ) but I have a friend who has been her whole life, so I can say that there are tons of legit delicious gluten-free foods out there.
Remember when this time of year was the longest/fastest part of the school year? |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| Welp. I'm old. I legit look forward to this thread and chatting about the weather.
So, it was pretty hot and humid here yesterday, then today was nice and cool. Its supposed to hella rain this week apparently. Every day those bastards push back my much wanted thunder storm. The end. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| Remember when Cteno didn't post a "remember when"?
But I remember when it wasn't a "thing". Rather the kids were tormented in school yeah, but there didn't seem to be any sort of "movement" to make it better and all that shit. And I have mixed feelings on whether the "movement" is always for the best as well, but hey. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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Originally posted by Rogue I love you. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| And Leia and Luke are twins! Zomg!
Seriously though, its just plain rude. I did the whole spoiling thing once, last week actually, all for the sake of some joke that wasn't really all that funny, and I felt like a dirtbag the moment someone pointed it out to me. Personally, I can handle spoilers most times, but my mind is so wrapped around "Star Wars" stigma where I know the ending, but I'm learning how they got there. Not everyone is like that though and I know I'm just as pissed when people spoil the "how" for me as they would be if I spoiled the "what" for them. I dunno. Etiquette, ya know? Although... Spoiler: To complete my "joke" from last Sunday, Casey Kasem. That makes three. Its all in threes.  |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| "I Saw the Sign" and misinterpreting those lyrics. Getting my ass beat for slipping up and in front of adults, saying the "and then they'll kick your ayayayayayayaaaassssss" (ass) part of the Flyers' fight song that was really a rip off an Off-Spring song.
When the Flyers went to the Cup and we still had our Legion of Doom boys. John LeClair. Ron Hextall. Watching Xena, Hercules and Baywatch with my mom. My bad ass pool. And like Sorcha posted, Lisa Frank and butterfly clips.
I didn't know too much about 90's music until the Boy Band era due to the fact that no one in my household mentally left the 80's. I miss running home from school for Sailor Moon, then I'd get my math homework done and then rewarded myself with DBZ. By then my brother-in-law would be home and I'd get him to watch a 90's kung-fu movie, "Mortal Kombat", "Warriors of Virtue", "Three Ninjas", "Power Rangers" you name it...and then we'd practice those sweet moves, and then I'd get my ass beat for trying them out for real on my sisters. Life was pretty sweet. The little kid in me is stoked we have Hextall back as our GM though. To me its like "Hmmm...what was your favorite part of the 90's that you would die happy if it came back?" and I'm now able to respond "I'd die with a smile now." |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| I'm sorry for the spoiler thing. I legit feel like dirt. And I personally hate the "Well, don't go on social media if you don't want to see things" as a reason to justify themselves doing those things. I was just so pumped up about it all and only thought of a stupid joke and not what I was actually saying. And you're right, I don't do that. Ever. Except that one time, so that's like hitting someone below the belt. I just saw the last few posts here now, and they made me giggle a little. But I'll never do it again, I promise.
I used to really like Dany, but I didn't care for her this season either. I DID like that she started to fuck up a little though. It just seemed to make sense with natural character progression period. I'm excited for season 5 just to see how they do it though. I haven't read anything past Storm of Swords just yet, so I can only go by what people are saying, regarding how boring the book is. I have faith in the show making something out of it at least. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| Super duper bump, but thank you! (Like, 4 month bump. Haha)
I did see this a while back and it made me smile. Thanks so much guys. I've gotten horrible on dates and birthdays in my old age. |
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Katana Dark Wizard \"She said tonight...come on come on collide...see what I fire feels like..I bet its just like heaven.\" Since: 08-15-04 From: Philadelphia, P.A. Since last post: 1554 days Last activity: 1371 days |
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| Riots.
Honestly, I've been trying to stay away from getting my "coverage" off of Facebook. Elara's synopsis was perhaps the best to-the-point coverage I've read. Now, I'm about to sound like a bit of a bigot at first here, but I'm rather annoyed with the "race wars" being pointed out, especially on social media sites like Facebook. "This isn't the first time. What about Trayvon Martin?" "Oh yeah? What about that black lady that killed a little boy with a blow torch." And so on and so forth. If this IS a race war, to be honest, I'm not too sure I want a truly colorblind society to begin with. What about culture, art, and all of the beautiful things in what makes us different? They're making a movie of it now, but I always imagined the book "The Giver" as a kid, when I heard people talk about a colorblind society. Both literally and figuratively. If we can achieve a society in which people aren't persecuted for their cultural difference, that part will be nice...What does that have to do with these specific current events? Nothing, except to address some inner fuming of mine over the people who are avoiding the facts and running their mouths over races and who did what worse. Look through a history book! We ALL suck, but we're all capable of making it better through future generations as long as we learn from the past. Now for the past week I've lived under a rock so to speak. Has any new information been released? Last I heard was something about the National Guard going in? |
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