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Bitmap #1 Enhancement Shaman US Ravenholdt          Since: 09-05-04 From: His Laughin' Place Since last post: 4558 days Last activity: 4552 days |
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-By Dale Hall “Cant you understand my hatred?” “The undefined balance of Love or Hate?” -“Does it have to be one...Love or Hate?” “Its one of the natural balances of today’s sick society...A society of feelings run by emotions.” There was always a time such as this, a time where I can just reflect on myself and just completely not understand how my feelings are created. I always thought it was destiny that fought through my empty veins at night when im alone at my home. Really, it’s the only time when I can reflect on myself. There are times when I can see mist escape my warm body and out into my chilled privacy, only then is when I can feel peace and tranquility. “Damned emotions” I said to myself, “If only I can escape from them, maybe for once I can just forget the past and live on with my fucking life.” When I was young, I used to look out of my window inside my trailer home, I was hot and sweaty due to the humidity, but as I gazed out the window and into that blue bug catcher I ignored the heat. I was young and pure then, my soul was one with God, Back then, I felt that my life was the purest and greatest experience ever. However the more I grew older the more I began to understand life the way God meant for it to be, but due to the emotions lead by capitol punishment, this world is only led by ‘Feelings’. “If destiny is ran in this world, then why bother living if you have no control for what lies ahead of you?” “If I had control over my destiny, would it be betraying God’s will?” I believe, that if you put your mind to it, you can achieve anything within human limits. I’ve gone up against many odds, and im still trailing on into this hellish land ran by emotions. People who believe in destiny make me sick sometimes. Like they believe that their life will be perfect later in life, what about the people in Ethiopia whom are starving? What about the people in Russia who have to life in a subcultural environment? People like them cant believe in dreams, because they know that their lives are controlled, they know that hope for them wont happen because they know that heroes cant just come from the heavens and just save them. They know that their life will never be perfect because of their emotions. People are born on this earth to live for what they have, not to believe in destiny. “I for one do not believe in destiny...” -“But why...?” “Because I want to make life the way I want to, not how someone wants me to live.” “Hey Dale, if you could kill anyone on this earth without getting caught, who would you kill?” A friend of mine stated while he was hitting a few joints. I just gazed over at him and laughed. “You wouldn’t like what my answer would be...” The friend laughed and pulled my shirt, eager to know what my answer would be. “C’mon man, I really want to know, I know inside of you were picked on as a little kid, there has to be someone!” I looked down and smiled. “You.....” The friend slowly backed up in shock. “Me...why me?” I looked back up with an angered expression, I opened my soul and released my anger. “Because, deep down inside I know you are just trying to USE ME!” I jumped up and grabbed my knife from my boot pocket, I threw the sheath with great precision into his face, gripped the knife and stabbed into his chest, a direct hit to the heart. He looked up with bloodshot glazed eyes, laughed a little and stared at me. “You know...this dosent really feel that bad, it feels like I can slowly escape from this world...this world ran by emotions...” “The actions you do in life, determines the outcome of your successes and failures...And only I can determine my fate, not some story tale that tells me life will be better for me in the end, I know that my life will be a great one...No one will stop me from accomplishing my dream!” -“What is your dream?” “To go somewhere where there is always peace...” -“And where might that be?” “In my heart, where inside of there, even today, im led by these damned emotions...” (Last edited by Sajin Gorotto on 06-13-05 05:45 PM) |
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