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Since: 10-20-04

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Posted on 03-18-05 11:40 PM Link | Quote
So here's a question. I'm well on my way into getting drunk here this late evening because a conversation I had with someone reminded me painfully of a woman that I am completely in love with. She wants nothing to do with me outside of friendship, which hurts a lot more than I ever imagined it could.

So before I get too drunk to think straight here's a thought. What past loves or friends have you all lost and how did you get past it if you did at all? Inquiring minds want to know.
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Since: 03-18-05
From: Keyes

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Posted on 03-19-05 08:25 AM Link | Quote
I can usually get over lost "loves" in two or three weeks, which makes me think that maybe I still haven't experienced true love. Then again, I am not a terribly emotional person, so maybe I have and am just a cold, loveless person.
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Since: 08-14-04
From: 255

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Posted on 03-19-05 09:34 AM Link | Quote
I explained a bit here.

Anyways, his name was John. For awhile my family was moving back and forth all over Kansas, from Tennessee, etc, and finally we found a place in KS that we could afford to live in and eventually bought a small home. Well, the town wasn't very pleasant, there was a park down the street and honestly, I'm sure many drug deals and things like that were held.

(For another story about the park, listen to this. One time my friend and I rode our bikes down to the park. We sat around playing on the swings and things, and we kept on seeing a figure popping in and out of the bathroom. We were in 5th grade I think, this guy had to be maybe 17-20. We must have not been thinking logically then, because we decided to "spy" on the guy. We went towards the back of the bathroom, and tried to listen and see if we can find anything. He came around the corner. I swear to god I had never been so scared in my life, he slowly just walked up to us and basically said "Get away". So, from there we ran back to my friends house, and called the cops. It turned out the guy had several drugs on him, and he was keeping a girl in the bathroom ...)

Anyways, shortly after moving I met my friend named John. He was different from me. I was your average nerdy-geeky young gamer, while he had the JNCO pants going, a rat tail, a peirced ear, and was quite the trouble maker sometimes. But does that really mean anything? Nope, we quickly became best friends for the next 3 years. We were probably the oddest couple, but we were good friends ...

We'd hang out pretty much daily. And during the summer, we were always spending the night at eachothers houses. We'd wrestle (since I was into wrestling at the time and so we he), we'd sneek out at night ... throw yogurt at houses, and do all kinds of things. I even caught his toaster on fire, his mom threw it out on the back patio.

Well, then came Jr. High. My mom wanted to get me out of that area because the schools were horrible. So, we ended up moving. For awhile, my friend and I didn't talk, we were pretty pissed at eachother.

Then, from there, it pretty much became all of my fault. When I moved, I didn't think of my old friends very much, it was depressing and I just wanted to forget about them because it stressed me out. So, yeah I ended up meeting a lot of new people and soon had a lot of friends at my new Jr. High.

In 7th and 8th grade I still had John over a few times. Then, he ended up moving about 30 minutes away. John started to go back to his old ways ... for awhile, he was in Juvi. I honestly, was somewhat of a good influence around him. When I was around, he was a good kid, but once I seemed to have left his life ... he changed.

He ended up stealing things, probably having sex with girls, and eventually he was put into a special home for boys.

Now, I don't know where he is. My mom said she saw him once at the mall, and he actually looked really good and was nicely dressed, they talked and he told her to tell me he said hi. But, truthfully I haven't seen him for a couple of years ...

Do I regret it? Yes, he was a good friend, and I do regret basically blocking him out of my life to preserve my self contamination.

All I hope is that he gets his life back together sometime, and stops what he's been doing for the past couple of years.
Elara

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Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

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Posted on 03-19-05 12:52 PM Link | Quote
Hmn... well let us see where to begin...

Erica: My first best friend. We met in 1st grade when I was taken out of the GATE program because the teacher hated me (not even kidding there). We hung out a lot, talked on the phone, made lemonade together, all that fun stuff. Then she moved around 4th grade. We still talked and she came to visit me when I got hit by a car. She moved again, this time we took turns visiting each other. Around 7th or 8th grade she moved to Orange County (30 minutes away, since I'm in Los Angeles County) and though we kept in contact for awhile with letters and the occational phone call, I have not heard from her since I was in 11th grade or so. Last I heard she had a car and was doing well, but I do miss her sometimes. She was the skinny blonde girl, liked pink and all that... while I was the chunky brunette tomboy. Yeah, I miss her.

Elias: My first real love... what we had was special, but it just crashed and burned in the end. Apparently I first met him in 1st grade too, when I was still in the GATE program (he was a year older and I was originally in a 1st/2nd grade split class), but after that I didn't see him until 11th grade. He was shy and funny and we got along great, it ended turning into something more over the summer and I fell for him. We never argued, and it seemed we had a balance of power, though I usually seemed to have more. Then the decline happened... 6 months into the relationship we went with WhiteRose and her boyfriend to Disneyland. Elias had never been there, so I thought it would be fun... and it was for the most part, or at least I thought so. I ended up having to use the "if you love me..." line to get him on Space Mountain because he "didn't like rollercoasters" (I was not about to leave him alone while we went on a ride, besides, he had never been on a rollarcoaster). That "upset the balance" in his opinion, and tainted our relationship. So, for the next two years that we were together he tried to mentally hurt me like I did to him supposedly so I would "know how it felt". I noticed nothing until the last 6 months of the relationship, when he seemed like a different person... like the sterotype male. To cut it short, I ended up leaving him the day after christmas 2003. He didn't take it well and stalked me for awhile, among other things... but he finally moved on and now we talk/hang out occationally.
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Since: 08-14-04
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Posted on 03-19-05 12:59 PM Link | Quote
It seems the same things kind of happened with you Elara.

Jr. High came around. People move. Ugh.

I moved so many times in my past life, I had to remake friends again and again and again. At least now that I'm quite older, High School has been great and I haven't really had problems with friendships and losing any like that, but yeah, from Jr. High and up I pretty much had to start over.

The thing is though, some of my very old friends from Elementary school go to my new High School, and well ... they've changed. It's almost sad to see how much people have changed. One of my friends for instance, was a big time skater, we played games all of the time, he wore VANS shoes, now he's probably the biggest "wigger" I've ever seen in my life. No, I don't talk to him anymore nor would I really care too ...

That also goes for girls. I won't brag that I was maybe "popular with the girls in Elementary school" because that sounds dumb, but now whenever I see any of them ... it's like they don't even know I exist.

But then again, I myself have probably changed in peoples eyes ... then again, probably not. I was a "geek" back then, I'm a "geek" now.


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Elara

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Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

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Posted on 03-19-05 01:19 PM Link | Quote
Oh yeah, the change in people from Elementary to High School is amazing. I was the most unpopular kid back in elementary... in fact for most of my life Erica was my only friend and even that was iffy at times. Come high school most of them treated me nicer, some became close friends, and many just admitted that they were assholes and were sorry.

Case in point, and biggest example ever:

Sergio: Transfered to my school in 3rd grade and had no friends. Somehow we started hanging out, and were pretty cool with each other. Then the popular boys got to him and told him the way of Hollydale Elementary (to be popular, you had to make my life miserable by teasing me and making me cry daily... not kidding) and so he backstabbed me and became popular. Then 7th grade came around (Hollydale was K-8, so I had no Jr. High really) he started flirting with me. I knew it was a joke so I told him to fuck off. He kept at it until in 8th grade I started to believe it, he became the psuedoboyfriend... at least when the popular people weren't around, then he was an ass. I knew he was using me, but I've never really been loved in my life and I craved that attention he gave me. So yeah, needless to say he ripped my heart to pieces and damaged my trust, thus starting my horrible luck in love and I finally got free of it in 9th grade. We still talked occationally, and near the end of 9th grade or beginning of 10th he called me to tell me that he was gay. Out of all of his "friends" he told me first, and began royally apologizing for all the shit that he did to me because the popular girls told him to. Quit hanging out with most of them as well... and by senior year was a much better person. In 11th grade he'd call a lot to rant about a guy he liked and to get advice from me on what to do, it was so sweet. But yeah, if I saw him on the street I would say hi and we'd get along fine even though we run in different circles (he's still preppy/rap boy and always will be). I think that is the biggest example of people changing that I've seen.
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Since: 10-03-04
From: Azul Lux Orbital, Kirin Beta

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Posted on 03-19-05 01:42 PM Link | Quote
Past friends I've lost? Oh, plenty. Lauren, Brian, Ambir, Alicia.... and that's just the first four years of school. =/ Shared classes with them each for two years; the first two were kindergarten and first grade, the second two were in my second and third grade classes (I also had the same teacher for both years.) Brian was a lot like me, though a bit quieter (didn't take much, I was quite the loudmouth back then). Lauren was pretty much that little voice inside your head that tells you you're going to get in trouble for doing something. She was nice, though, and wound up helping me to the clinic numerous times. I hurt myself a lot. Ambir and Alicia... really quiet. I still think there were a few things Ambir was hiding, and ALicia was just really easy to upset.

I ended up moving both times... After first grade, we moved damn near three hundred miles. After third, well... I was in the same school for fourth, but never saw Ambir or Alicia. And since I lived eleven miles from that school, I had no chance of seeing them outside of school (and I so loathe talking on the phone). After fourth grade, I got sent to a school closer to where I lived. Much closer. This led to other problems that I'm not gonna get into right here. In fact, I'm gonna stop thinking about the subject, so if you want more detail than that, that's just too damn bad. =/
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Since: 09-05-04
From: His Laughin' Place

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Posted on 03-26-05 01:31 AM Link | Quote
The relationships with your friends in time with school can be frusterating, in fact, when your in the 11th grade, it can be hard to tell who your friends are, ive lost plenty of friends, rebuilt some, and lost few. But one thing that people understand is that people change, personalities change, and while your still young, you need to connect better with your true friends around you...

Ive got PLENTY of sad stories about loosing friends. . .so dont start!
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Since: 08-17-04
From: The Dreaming

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Posted on 03-26-05 10:44 PM Link | Quote
Hmmm, there really isns't anyone big except for my ex Roger.
I met him my freshman year of high school and took a liking to him so much that the day I met him (he was walking me and my friend home), I kept staring at him (didn't realize it till she told me the next day.) Well we didn't get together till like late in my sophmore year. We got together at my friends New Year Party. He didn't ask me or anything, it kind jsut happened and around 2 or so in the morning, he was holding my hand and later on he kissed me. It was such a new feeling for me. Over time, I fell in love with him and became engaged to him.

Things began to change after he started going to college...

He met a girl there and he admited to me that he liked her, but I said not to worry about it as longed as he stayed loyal to me. So he did (I assume) till I graduated and started going to the same college...then he left me. He said he was breaking up with me because he was going through some things, that we might get back together after wards. The only thing that happened was that he got with the girl he met. To make matters worse, he had me pretend to be his girlfriend around his parents so he wouldn't get in trouble with his parents for hurting me...sadly enough I went along with it. I was being torn apart.

Even to this day, if I think about it too long, it bring me great pain. I loved him very much and he betrayed me. It was very hard for me to love again.

Do I regret lossing him?...No. It was for the best, if he didn't do it then, he would have done it when we were married. Also, thanks to that, I became close with my Oni and eventually started dating him and now I'm happily engaged and madly in love.

Sometimes lossing people is a good thing.
Elara

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Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

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Posted on 03-27-05 02:02 AM Link | Quote
Originally posted by WhiteRose
Sometimes lossing people is a good thing.


Oh gods, that statement is so true. To gain something special it seems you need to lose something first.

Okay, must resist being hopeless romantic....
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