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Since: 09-05-04
From: His Laughin' Place

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Posted on 05-26-07 10:20 PM Link | Quote
One would think that after working for Disney, I would at least have some kind of foundation to work on. Well technicially it looks like I was wrong.

Here is my current shitlist of the week.

1

Here lately, the money I have saved up is now run dry. I had to cancel my Insurance policy, quit paying for my phone bill, and all sorts of other bullshit. Mainly because I dont have a job. But im going to get on that story here in just a minute.

Alright, so. I have No Job, no car, no nothing right now. Im seriously fucking stuck living with my grandmother, practicially "Mooching" off of her.

But Nagis, why cant you get a job?

well. My family is practicially shit broke. The only job I can get to is practically 3 hours away from walking distance. Plus the guy who owns the place rejected me because I dont have a fucking car. Hell, no job wants me after I decline the magical fucking question of "Do you have a vehicle or a means of transportation"? That little answer always leads to: "No, no car, no friends to take me, no nothing...I was hoping if perhaps a fellow employee picks me up somehow".

Well, they SERIOUSLY want me to work, but they cant trust me without a car and always Rejects me...so yeah, im pretty fucking stuck.

2

And if that wasnt enough. My family had a discussion with me about my dad. Hes in a really big hellhole right now. He hasnt been doing his community service, he always borrows hundreds of dollars for money, and what does he spend it on? Crack, Fucking godamn motherfucking Crack. Fuck it, and if I know anyone who does it, they are getting their ass kicked so fucking hard, Ill make sure they wont see the light of day ever again.

Well, my uncle came by, hes a very big guy, to take him to some kind of rehab, it ended with him getting furious, and him yelling at me for no fucking reason. Every, damn, Day.

So you know why im such a nice guy here? because really, Im trying to find something to live for. Im trying to please everyone because im looking for THAT BLESSING THAT I WAS PROMISED.

3

Ive done everything. Drama, Youth groups, Church commitment, everything to maybe somehow, it can get me somewhere like "Oh Dale, you want a little side-job to maybe perhaps help you save up some money"? Oh no, nothing like that, it more or less ends with. "Dale, we really need you for this drama, the Church needs the money".

Do you know how hard it is for me to quit a church, after all the things I have tried and done? I tried to save People, Do God's work and trying to convert people, but now, its biting me in the fucking ass, and I cant take it anymore. The way I can escape all that, is by doing nice things online, TRYING to fit in, to escape the reality that im in a shithole. A Major one, and with things falling apart here, im damn sure surprised I diddnt bite a fucking bullet to my brain. But I wouldent kill myself, im not giving anyone the satisfaction, or my dad the pleasure, that he failed in his life, and that killing myself (which I WONT do) will just make his life sour, that wont fucking solve anything. But damnit, what the fuck CAN I DO!?

When people ask me to do things, online or offline, Ill do it to the best of my ability and make sure that you guys are as happy as possiable. But why isnt any blessing coming into my life, what help am I getting? None. I had to work my ass off to at least go to Disney, but that job that I worked at is now out the window. Poof, no more.

I wanted to Rant, if you want to know how the fuck im doing. Here I am. Too long, Diddnt read, I dont give a shit.


(Last edited by Nagis on 05-27-07 01:20 AM)
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Posted on 05-26-07 11:42 PM Link | Quote
If you have it, try Craig's List? Otherwise, the classified in your local newspaper is a good place to look. Just to try to help out, you have work experience, probably under PR, from what I gather. Where I live, office experience is more useful, but look around.

I'd say I know how you feel, but I don't.

My dad's a jerk sometimes, and around rarely, and talks to me even rarer, and we converse once in a blue moon, but he doesn't do crack, which is good, I guess.

My applications for jobs are out, so I'm just finishing up school, looking for cheap books for college, and not thinking about what I can't effect.
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Since: 08-15-04
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Posted on 05-29-07 03:01 PM Link | Quote
I take it you live in an area with no public transportation?

Well, I don't really know what to tell you about the job issue other than keep hammering away, something is sure to open up... how did you lose the Disney job anyway?

What I can comment on is the other stuff. I admire that you try to make everyone happy, but you won't be able to do that all the time... hell, you can't even make yourself happy all the time. The important thing is that you should start doing what you need to do for yourself, not neccessarily to make you happy, but to improve things for you. The worst that can happen is that people will be angry at you for not doing what they want you to, but you can't go on trying to please everyone all the time. You'll be a lot happier for it in the end.
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Since: 09-05-04
From: His Laughin' Place

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Posted on 05-29-07 03:30 PM Link | Quote
Originally posted by Elara
how did you lose the Disney job anyway?


Internship, I started that job on July 4th, and came home on January 11th.

And alot of people told me to think of myself more, but to me, that sounds selfish. Silly as it may sound, if I would focus more on myself, theres not alot I CAN focus on about myself.

But, there are a few things I have done, like not logging on to AIM and just play the games I want to play online, or just relieve stress by doing yard work: Mowing the lawn, picking up trash on my street, and so on.
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Posted on 05-29-07 04:12 PM Link | Quote
However, if a good situation comes and you have to be selfish, do it.

Why? You ain't gonna help anyone if you're not better off than them, are you?
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Since: 08-15-04
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Posted on 06-01-07 03:04 PM Link | Quote
A very good point, Darkslaya.

But yeah, getting out and doing things to relieve stress is good as well. You could also try going for walks or jogging, that might help as well.
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Since: 09-05-04
From: His Laughin' Place

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Posted on 06-03-07 03:56 PM Link | Quote
Meh, so I went to flordia for the past 4 days...it really wasnt stress relieving, it was more stress causing.

I mean, we stayed at a nice condo, had fun at the beach, I played DDR (retarded), and even went to a party....a Foam party.

But the whole time, my friend's dad would be polite, while my friend would be an ass towards him.

So yeah, I did go out and traveled a bit on my own, but for some reason, I diddnt have a good time.

And when I called my mom up, she was mad because "you never told me that you were going to flordia"

Uh Mom? Check the 4 messages on your answering machine.

"...Oh! I completely forgot"

Pretty much screamed at me for no reason pretty much.

So yeah, I was selfish, but I diddnt feel right to be honest. I dunno, I just want to go out someday and actually have a good time with some friends rather than having them complain alot. That way, I dont have anything to worry about, and I can think clearer.

And Elara, I did take your idea while I was in flordia, I went out for a 4 hour jog around the beach, it was fun, and even met a few people there that I hung out with...but that moment ended when I had to go back to my apartment with the "Arguements for no apparent reason!"

*sigh* Oh yeah...But things will get better, im just at a hump that wont go up.

Oh yeah, one GREAT thing that came out of my trip.



Bought an epic Wizard pipe there. And some Djarium Blacks


(Last edited by Nagis on 06-03-07 07:09 PM)
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Since: 08-15-04
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Posted on 06-04-07 01:25 AM Link | Quote
Huzzah, a suggestion of mine worked! Now if only I listened to that one more often, heh heh heh.
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Posted on 06-04-07 12:11 PM Link | Quote
Here's what I have to say about that. Damn... Just damn..

I wish to help out the best I can, but the money I've saved to get jobs is pretty much running dry. But I HAVE been getting some call backs. Just some. You know if this wasn't fucking Harris County I'd have you covered.
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Since: 09-05-04
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Posted on 06-04-07 04:00 PM Link | Quote
Fuck Harris County for real. Honestly, we need more development, huntdowns on Troop County about Narcotics, and a fucking bus system or something in the county I was fucking stuck in.

But im trying to apply for Circuit City and Best buy. If I cant get those jobs, I cant get any job.
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