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Cteno Super Shotgun Moderator         Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days |
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Cteno Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days |
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| Happy Birthday, you're gonna die!
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Cteno Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days |
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Originally posted by Vulkar Actually, I want to raze most of it in Hellfire while riding a six-legged steed, swinging my mighty Warhammer in pure fury and piercing my foes with my legendary spear with divine wrath! Bonsai Teriyaki can stay though. |
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Cteno |
Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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Actually, that's how the weather's been here as well! It was freezing cold and nearly snowing before September was even done, and it doesn't normally get like that until late December/January! |
Cteno |
Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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Originally posted by Vulkar But what's the point of destroying the planet if you can't have your favorite meal in Valhalla (no relation) afterward?
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Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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Comes out on my birthday. From the article in Game Informer, it definitely exceeded my expectations and most likely won't disappoint!
Cteno |
Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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The Character Creation demo released 23 minutes ago! The Bioware forums were absolutely crazy, it looked like 4chan! |
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Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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Originally posted by Elara Best sushi and tempura you can get in town!
Cteno |
Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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Originally posted by Cyro Xero My thoughts on this issue exactly. (restricted) |
Cteno |
Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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Originally posted by Kaijin Surohm That was an old PCI one though, an older Nvidia would have been the same as those. ATI is a direct competitor with gaming graphics, with very few differences in between the two companies. Though I personally prefer Nvidia, a casual or hardcore gamer could probably not tell the difference in the quality of graphics, ATI generally have a bit higher specs and Nvidias are made to take more abuse (such as overclocking) and utilize Anti-Aliasing and Anisotropic Filtering more efficiently. Unless you're looking at the pixels in the distance, you probably won't notice any negligible difference. And yes, I've experimented and 3Gb RAM is optimal for fast loading of texture maps and advanced shaders, which most current games utilize to the maximum. Having a video card with large amount of dedicated memory (mine has 1gb dedicated, ~2gb texture, 3 total) also helps alleviate this. The one I kicked out had 256mb and loaded the textures sluggishly, demanding more from my RAM. The new one took most of the load but still benefits from the extra gig-point-five, improving my framerate by 40 fps in WoW, and that's a big jump, doubling it on average. Of course, turning off the advanced shaders and certain texture mapping jumped it by 200 fps, it just looks prettier when slammed to the max. Also, if you have a quad-core, do NOT use all 4 core for one intense program, even if you have liquid nitrogen cooling (joke, but you get the point) it will overheat and you'll get the dreaded blue screen. Even 3 cores for one program is a bit much, though decent cooling can make it happen. Just threw that bit in there from getting a 100 fps jump in Crysis, just for my pc to crash 20 seconds later. Other components overheating is fine, just don't hurt the CPU!
Cteno |
Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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Where do I even start? Well, about a week before my birthday, my fiancee decided to break up and cut me out of her life completely. I didn't realize how much I had come to rely on her emotional support, I've barely been able to function without her. It really came as a shock to me because we've never fought once in the nearly four years we've been together and we had a great time the night before! It all just seems strange to me. She wouldn't even let me have a chance, especially after her last boyfriend who was a total dick to her, yet they dragged it out for far too long until they couldn't stand one another. Thing is, I've never treated her badly. We would talk about our problems if we ever had them and I would always do my best to cheer her up when she was in a bad mood! I know it's been tough on her that I didn't have a job and she's been supporting me for a year, but there wasn't a day that went by where I wasn't looking. It's tough for somebody with a good resume to find something let alone me.
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So basically, I'm back in with my parents which is torturous. I can't be gone from the house for more than two hours without my mother checking up on me, making sure that I come home many hours earlier than I had anticipated to stay out. Well, it's day two right now and I've been ignoring her calls, probably not the best decision, I know, but I really can't stand it otherwise. My mother's excuse for wanting me back home is that, "We need to go check up on your applications, get you new clothes, etc...". The problem with that is that I've been waiting around for the majority of the month, bored out of my mind waiting for my mother to be ready to go and actually do these things. I'm sorry, I'm not going to wait around for you to do it when I can go do it myself. I've been lying low with a friend for a couple days but I think I'm ready to go back home today and face the wrath of
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Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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Thanks, I've been hanging out with some friends that I haven't seen in a while. It helps a lot, but there's always a hole in me whenever I'm alone, I'm just not the type to be single. |
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Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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It's a bit complicated, she wants to grow more as a person and feels like I'm being a burden. She wants to be able to do her own thing without having to worry about me or having to include me in everything, which I totally understand. In my opinion though, she won't be growing at all if she just blocks me out of her life like this and just removes the difficulty altogether. Me not having a job hurt the situation but there's not a whole lot I can do about that now, it's something out of my hands, hence why I moved back in with my parents. She also believes that she's holding me back from the things that I want but the truth is that I don't have any other major goals than to be a father/partner and that she wouldn't be getting in the way in the slightest. I would like to go to an art school of some sort but that can be accomplished online in my free time.
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It's almost as if she has another motive for the whole thing other than what she's telling me but she doesn't seem to want to divulge, passing it off as the "it's not you, it's me" thing but I can't help but feel responsible. I've never loved somebody this much and I can't stop thinking about her or how she's doing. I haven't heard from her in nearly a month (we were taking a month apart to have a breather) and we'll hang out/discuss the situation on Monday, hopefully I won't be clingy as one of my major flaws is that I have terrible attachment issues. One of the only things keeping me going right now is the false hope of this whole thing blowing over and everything goes back to how it was but I know I can't rely on that. She's so strong willed that I don't think that I'll ever be able to just outright convince her to see it another way or to give me another chance. Another of the reasons why is that her last relationship (approximated four years ago) ended sourly. Her and Stephen started to fight and they just dragged on a passive-aggressive relationship for about three months before she finally cut it off and she didn't want that with me even though I knew we were nowhere near that stage in the slightest. I know that some of the things I did would annoy her but I've been changing my attitude and straightening up over the last few years. Hell, I wouldn't have even graduated high school if she hadn't helped me! She pushed me that last extra step I needed and really made me feel good about myself and my work, not only for my Senior Project but also for the years to follow. Since we broke up my self-esteem went down the drain and I've become a nervous wreck. She wants me to date other girls but nobody around here appeals to me, neither physically or mentally. Some of my friends joke(?) about hooking me up with another one of their friends but they're showing me people that simply dress similarly to myself but couldn't hold an intellectual conversation to save their lives. The greatest thing I loved about Regina was that she was always so open to new things and listened to the things that I had to say. Nobody else I know truly listens. I'm the one that always has to listen, I never get a say in anything anymore. It's truly aggravating (especially since my stutter is returning with full force) and nobody is willing to ear-up to me. I lost not only my lover but also my best friend. I just feel like an empty shell again, back before I met her. I really never knew who I was until we fell in love, she literally made me whole and nobody else will ever fill that void. All of my best coping mechanisms have failed, my only comfort being her. She didn't even need to do anything special and I would always be happy, just knowing that I could put a smile on her face took away all of my worries and I would feel enlightened, inspired. It's like I'm missing a leg, mentally and emotionally. I wish I didn't have to rely on her so much for that sort of support but that's the pathetic truth that is me. None of my other friends truly understand me. I try to be easygoing and have fun but another friend of mine could tell just by looking at my eyes that something was amiss. He didn't know about us breaking up yet but it's like he knew. I'm not able to hide my sorrow perfectly. I cry myself to sleep every night. I'm getting panic attacks and nervous ticks. I feel unstable all of the time and the best of everybody's advice hasn't helped much. I almost wish that I could simply forget about her but then I'd be throwing away the only true happiness that I've ever experienced. I'm disheartened of starting again with somebody else because I'm terrified that I'll be rejected after Regina was so accepting. I don't want to become attached to somebody who's either using me or someone who doesn't truly love me and will just leave one day. My heart is too fragile to cope with anything like that, nearly too fragile for the current situation. I've always been pretty flexible and adaptable but I can't get used to being alone again, feeling uneasy about everything I do. I'm sorry for basically writing a primer to my emotions but this is what's constantly on my mind.
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Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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That indeed would be a terrifying world. Then again, that would be if men didn't have libidos. I think everybody would get along in a world where both men and women were equally horny at all times! |
Cteno |
Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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I would insert the obligatory "giggity" but I'll refrain for fear of my life. |
Cteno |
Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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I get to look forward to spending time with my dysfunctional family and fighting most of the week, all while not having a significant other to be happy with...
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I hate the holidays. Bah humbug.
Cteno |
Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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I came back from my friend's place to spend the day with my mother for her birthday. Well long story short, my dad was a total dick to her all day and didn't even really give her the time of day otherwise. Mom decided to get a divorce that evening. It really killed any hope for a holiday mood that I had and I might be homeless if my dad decides to ditch the house. Hurray! |
Cteno |
Super Shotgun Moderator Since: 01-11-05 Since last post: 1629 days Last activity: 749 days
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Well, it will definitely be remembered as one of the worst of my life but it had it's moments.
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